Confession

After my first divorce, I was freaking out and was psychologically in a hurry to marry again.

Family friends introduced us to each other. He was a pretty average desi guy with a mediocre income. He was married once before to an Afro-American girl and had one daughter whom he met every weekend. I never asked, but I assume he married her for a Green Card.

Very soon after our marriage, I realized I couldn't live with this generic desi person! All of my evils came out. I didn't have any justification to call off the marriage. What I did was start behaving nasty to his mother. As I planned and suspected, he could not take my (nastiest of) nasty behavior with his mother. He divorced me! My plan worked.

But till today, I was unable to forgive myself. Once all evils lose suppression, a human can do anything - like what I did to his poor simple desi mother in everyday matters of life.

I don't even wish an enemy to put bare all evils when relationships are not working. It becomes very satanic.