Thursday, March 05, 2026

Raymond - The parking attendent

 "My name's Raymond. I'm 73. I work the parking lot at St. Joseph's Hospital. Minimum wage, an orange vest, and a whistle I barely use. Most people don't even look at me. I'm just the old man waving cars into spaces.

But I see everything.

Like the black sedan that circled the lot every morning at 6 a.m. for three weeks, a young man driving, grandmother in the passenger seat. Chemotherapy, I figured. He'd drop her at the entrance, then spend 20 minutes hunting for parking, missing her appointments.

One morning, I stopped him. "What time tomorrow?"
"6:15," he said, confused.
"Space A-7 will be empty. I'll save it."
He blinked. "You... you can do that?"
"I can now," I said.

The next morning, I stood in A-7, holding my ground as cars circled angrily. When his sedan pulled up, I moved. He rolled down his window, speechless. "Why?"
"Because she needs you in there with her," I said. "Not out here stressing."
He cried. Right there in the parking lot.

Word spread quietly. A father with a sick baby asked if I could help. A woman visiting her dying husband. I started arriving at 5 a.m., notebook in hand, tracking who needed what. Saved spots became sacred. People stopped honking. They waited. Because they knew someone else was fighting something bigger than traffic.
But here's what changed everything: A businessman in a Mercedes screamed at me one morning. "I'm not sick! I need that spot for a meeting!"

"Then walk," I said calmly. "That space is for someone whose hands are shaking too hard to grip a steering wheel."

He sped off, furious. But a woman behind him got out of her car and hugged me. "My son has leukemia," she sobbed. "Thank you for seeing us."

The hospital tried to stop me. "Liability issues," they said. But then families started writing letters. Dozens. "Raymond made the worst days bearable." "He gave us one less thing to break over."

Last month, they made it official. "Reserved Parking for Families in Crisis." Ten spots, marked with blue signs. And they asked me to manage it.

But the best part? A man I'd helped two years ago, whose mother survived, came back. He's a carpenter. Built a small wooden box and mounted it in the reserved spaces. Inside? Prayer cards, tissues, breath mints, and a note,

"Take what you need. You're not alone. -Raymond & Friends"
People leave things now. Granola bars. Phone chargers. Yesterday, someone left a hand-knit blanket.
I'm 73. I direct traffic in a hospital parking lot. But I've learned this: Healing doesn't just happen in operating rooms. Sometimes it starts in a parking space. When someone says, "I see your crisis. Let me carry this one small piece."

So pay attention. At the grocery checkout, the coffee line, wherever you are. Someone's drowning in the little things while fighting the big ones.

Hold a door. Save a spot. Carry the weight no one else sees.
It's not glamorous. But it's everything." 


Tuesday, March 03, 2026

Dark side of the Colosseum

People go to Rome to see the Colosseum - very touristy -, but it has nothing but a dark side in its basement - prisoners and women from the streets.

 - From the Old Colosseum, 1888. painting by Danish artist Valdemar Irminger


 

Sunday, March 01, 2026

Achhe log



کہتے ہیں، سب سے اچھی دعا یہ ہے کہ 

تمہیں زندگی میں اچھے لوگ ملیں

 

Friday, February 27, 2026

Otrovert

 A new term is up in the personality world: "otrovert."

Coined by psychiatrist Dr. Rami Kaminski, it describes people who feel like perpetual outsiders, not quite introverts, not quite extroverts, but something entirely different.

Unlike introverts (who recharge alone) or extroverts (who recharge with people), otroverts energize themselves by thinking their own thoughts. They don’t feel tied to any group, trend, or social expectation. They’re observers, free thinkers, and deeply independent.

They’re often warm, kind, funny, and great conversationalists, but usually connect deeply with only a few people. They’re not interested in what “everyone” is doing, don’t need validation, and typically prefer meaningful one-on-one conversations over group activities.

Some people discover they’re otroverts later in life. Others only realize it when a partner, friend, or article finally gives them a name for what they've always felt.

If this resonates, you might be an otrovert… or you might know someone who is.

Wednesday, February 11, 2026

Reflection on the Psychology of C***old Fantasy

 The following post is highly rated - You are free to ignore it.

It has been a long time since I stopped hanging out with friends at bars for happy hours. Last weekend, I was for a 'boys night out'. As Saadat Hasan Manto said:


Our conversation moved to sexual kinks, adventures, and fantasies. We were all shocked when one of the friends acknowledged his cuckold fantasy. He is a huge 6'2 guy with heavy muscles, and we have heard of a long list of girls having a crush on him. That's how he explained:


I’ve spent a long time trying to understand why the cuckold dynamic pulls at me the way it does, and what it’s actually trying to resolve inside me. It’s easy for people to write it off as humiliation or insecurity, but that’s surface-level thinking. The reality is more layered, more personal, and honestly, more revealing than anyone wants to admit.

For me, the core of it isn’t about another man at all.

It’s about confronting the parts of myself I don’t show openly — desire, vulnerability, jealousy, ego, devotion, fear, trust — all in one place. Strangely, the fantasy becomes a mirror. It reflects back things I’ve pushed down, ignored, or never had the space to acknowledge. Part of me wants to feel undone a little, like I’m peeling away the performance of masculinity I’ve worn for years. Another part wants to test myself, to stand in the middle of emotions most people won’t even let themselves name. The jealousy, the surrender, the intensity of wanting someone so much that I’m willing to feel uncomfortable — that says more about me than the fantasy itself.

And there’s the truth nobody talks about: It makes me confront my values. Not in a way that diminishes me, but in a way that forces me to separate worth from control. It pushes me to ask:

Do I love for possession or for connection?
Is my desire rooted in ego or in vulnerability?
Can I handle seeing my partner fully chosen by someone else, even if just in my mind?
What happens to me emotionally when I’m no longer the center?

There’s a strange kind of honesty in facing those questions. A peculiar kind of freedom, too. And deep down, I think the fantasy attempts to resolve one central tension inside me: I want to love without holding on so tightly that I crush the thing I’m trying to keep. It’s not about watching. It’s about facing who I am when I’m stripped of control, ego, and assumption. That’s the part that hits hardest. That’s the part the fetish is trying to reach. And maybe… resolve.

Wednesday, January 28, 2026

Theaters

 Netflix didn't kill movie theaters. $25 popcorn did, and $12 soda did. (Read on Facebook)

I used to be a movie junkie. Get tired of their manipulations..

Monday, January 26, 2026

Plague

I love the videos from this talented man, named Varun Grover