Thursday, November 11, 2010

15 baras

Main 'Markham' main rehti thi. Woh 'Brampton' main rehta tha. Main 2 jobs kerne ke baad TTC main dhakke kha ker us ke ghar jaati. Uske bartan dhoti, us ke kupre saaf kerti, khana banati. Meri saari zindagi us ke gird ghumti. Main us ke 'bills' bhi 'pay' ker deti - bulke uski 'fees' pay kerne ke liye amma ke diye kai zewar bhi bech diye. Amma ne lakh samjahaya. Abbu ne bhi kaha: "beta! tum dono ka mazhab alag hai, tum dono ki shadi bohat aage nahi jaaye gi". Magar main ishq main gum satwain aasman pe thi. Sab galat the - bus meri mohabbat theek thi.

Aur phir aik din woh aik dum se gaaib ho gaya. Zameen nigal gayi ya asmaan kha gaya. Khuch dinoN baad pata laga us ne Pakistan ja ker apni cousin se shaadi racha li. Main baawli si ho gi. Aik roz backpack le ker ghar se nikal gai. VIA Rail main beth gai. Train chalti rahi. Vancouver paunch gai magar dil wahiN Toronto main reh gaya.

15 baras ho gaye magar ab tuk us 'shock' se bahir nahi aayi. Ab bhi Toronto ka naam sun ker dar jaati hun. Tum jaante ho 15 baras aik aik pal kisi ki yaad se bhagna kiya hota hai. Tum mard ho. Tum kiya jaano tum mardoN ki bewafaii kese aurat ko botal main jin ki tarah band ker deti hai.

15 saal! uf khudaya! ab to aaine main apna chehra dekhne se bhi dar lagta hai....aik aik shikan pe uska naam likha hai.

11 comments:

Anonymous said...

This is interesting. But I'd be hard pressed to think that this is a result of the differing 'mazhab'. Nor is it solely male to female phenomenon.

People get up and walk away for a variety of reasons. Many men have done this, but so have many women. Same drama, different actors.

This is not to say that gender doesn't play a role in the aftermath. But that's a different thing.

mystic said...

anhaan, you are still around. I am glad I found yr blog again. I thoroughly enjoy yr intelligent writing.

I think it portrays more to the situation where one person completely gets absorb in relationship and 'shock' of losing and 'sense' of broken trust just blow some people away.

Anonymous said...

:(
Its not mazhab.
That man was an ...

mystic said...

Daer annonymous - I agree with you that Mazhab should not become an issue if you really intend a marriage. But in practical life, this is the biggest excuss people can come up.

Anonymous said...

Well... at the end of the day an excuse is an excuse is an excuse...
just like a boss is a boss is boss, is a boss...
Lack of willingness...
What say you?
A.

mystic said...

Lack of willingness, dar, weak will.....

Rida said...

:( why does a women suffer always...i have never heard about a single man who faces this situation and spent his whole life in such a SHOCK....???...are the women stupid or men heartless..???

Anonymous said...

It is eid today.

And the boy I said yes to in my nikkah papers. I feel nothing for him.

Did I walk on the wrong path? Did I say yes under pressure. Should I back out now...when no "damage" has been done?

mystic said...

Rida - I have seen men suffering from 'ishq' too. I doubt its gender based. Its all human to human.

Annonymous - Answer to your question could be a book long or just a single word. If you ask my opinion (which I am sure is biased) , I will say "Yes" - leave that relationship. Its not fair either to you or to him. I hope All mighty guide yr heart.

Zindagi Ke Panno se said...

Agar Woh Piyaar Kar Laita,
Mera Daaman Pakar Laita,
Tau Jeewan Main Faqat Uss Say,
“Muhabbat” Faraz Ho Jati.
“Muhabbat” Karz Ho Jati!
...Magar Acha Kiya Uss Nay!
Mujhay Samjha Kay Chal Nikla.
Mujhay Thukra Kay Chal Nikla.
Bohot Nadaan Sa Hai Woh,
Abhi Anjaan Sa Hai Woh,
Kahaan Maloom Hai Uss Ko,
“Muhabbat” Zindagi Main Bas Faqat Ek Baar Milti Hai…!!!!

Sir, pyar mein aisa hi q hota hai ?

mystic said...

ZKePSe - Finally I bumped someone who regularly writes in "Roman Urdu"!

Yaar Ishq chalta hai dil se - aur ye dil saala bara harami hai!!!