(The following post is just a rambling description of one event. No interference is intended about the right or wrong of any religion)
I always read Quran as a book of literature! But in the process had a few interesting experiences. Let me share one! - call it my psychological manifestation!!!
A few years ago, I could not accept how some Quranic verses said you might go to hell or heaven forever! (like 2: 81-82) - Most translations for the word "khalidun" were forever. It didn't make sense to me. If heaven or hell is a reward or punishment - it should have some form of closure/end. Otherwise, the whole spiritual journey seems like trash to me. Just F**** heaven or hell can't be a logical end to a massive design of divinity? - it should be way bigger than that.
I spend many years trying to find the answer to this question. No explanation from any sage provided me with any satisfactory answer. One night - I put Quran on my bedside and went to bed - very tired.
In the middle of the night, I dreamed that snakes and deadly bugs surrounded me. My heart was pounding with fear, and I felt that this fear would never go away. I woke up sweating and thought I had a nightmare - but then I was surrounded by this feeling that my query was answered. Heaven or hell is nothing but a feeling (which seems like forever) in our heart - maybe - to continue purifying us via good deeds or to keep us away from evil deeds. Even today, when I think of that dream, fear occupies my heart like everything.
In the next few years - I learned that most translations were wrong. Khalidun originated from the word 'khalad,'' never getting old.' Rewards or punishments end, but their lesson/feeling stays young forever - and we move from one axis to another in pursuit of a bigger end. Hell or heaven is just medium of knowledge. Books/Sufism are full of this talk of the spiritual journey. Google it!
Hum ko malum hai jannat ki haqeeqat, lekin
Dil ke khush rakhne ko Ghlib ye khayal achha hai
5 comments:
I agree too.my husband is always being very rigid about such ideas and telling the same to my oldest son.i think nothing is black and white in this world.people who are very focused on their ideas are usually disappointed in the end.i often tell my friend that i will be very curious after death about the fact that which belief was true.Islam,hinduism,judism etc etc.since no one has been able to confirm so far:)
You reminded me the the first scene from movie "The curious case of Bejamin Button", when a woman was dying in hospital and her daughter asked her: "Are you afraid?" and she replied;" No! I am just curious"
The writer has chosen on of the five different colors of meanings of Khalada. But it is up to every person to believe what he thinks is close to his 'Aql intelligence.
Inspite of all the claims of those who say they have been to heaven and back and give descriptions etc. the fact is nobody knows for that is His plan/strategy.
Oh mysic i was going to watch that film today(no really i was)you gave my opening away;)
Beyond! its one finest watch!!
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