An experience in "alternative life"

 Lately, I have been interested in "alternative lives." We are hypothesized to simultaneously exit many lives - a kind of Mandela effect.

I have done experiments with hypnotism in the past - and have previously blogged my experiences here. A few examples were experiencing my death in a previous life, my upcoming death in this life, or my life in the ancient Indian era (Vedas time). 

 May read here and here and here and here and here and here and here

I am convinced these are nothing but mind games. They are all good for fun. At heart, I am very agnostic or even atheist.

This time, the psychic made me experience my (one of the) alternative realities. It felt genuine. I see myself buying a mansion kind of house. Various animals are in the backyard, including deer, dogs, and other animals I don't recognize, but they are not attacking me. Dog and deer are friendly. Various people from this life are involved with me. I feel I am in California.

What struck me the most was that a class fellow from my med school - whom I hadn't met in 35 years - and who never crossed my mind was calling me on the phone. The mobile phone is very different from what we use. They are like rectangular boxes. The voice is crystal clear. He welcomes me to the state of California as a neighbor. (Next day, I inquired about his present whereabouts. I shat in my pants when I learned he now lives in California and quit medicine long ago.)

Various people from my life are helping me settle into the new house. Most I know. They are in the same or different roles—my previous yard guy, OR technician from the hospital, a few cousins, and a brother-in-law.

The experience was F***** real.

Every time I go through such a session, I develop massive muscle aches all over the body. Still recovering :)

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Married for 7 lives

I have never been a firm believer in reincarnation. I read about it every day. I met people who vouched about it from their anecdotal experience. Following is another experience from my one trip to El Salvador, where I took a cultural trip to see Mayan culture.

I met a couple in our tour group. It was interesting as the woman's name was 'Maya.' They asked me to believe in their tale in the name of their children. Maya described her story in the presence of her husband as below:

"As far as we remember, we first met 3500 years ago. My man was in somewhat 50-60 years of age when he died, and it was a scorching hot day. He was dressed in a classic Mayan tribal outfit. He probably died of heart failure as he was swollen and used to get short of breath easily the day he died. I was in love with him. I died very soon afterward in his grief. I returned to this world 2500 years afterward in old India, where I used to dress in white Saree and wear flowers in my hair. He took another thousand years to get born again. When he asked me if I should have found another soul in between, I replied: my heart didn't accept any other man, but I became friends with another female soul - and became kind of a lesbian until  you and I were born together."

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Salmon Run

 Salmon Run is one of the most intriguing phenomena of nature. I was first told about this by one of my patients, a professional fisherman in the pacific ocean. I didn't believe him. But when Google came, I learned he was right. Salmon can go as far as Japan but will return to spawn at her birthplace. She will spawn, become colorless, and act like a dead, so her eggs stay protected (big fishes don't come near/eat dead fish). 

Once her children leave for the river, she will die at her birthplace.

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Fractured souls

 I have seen three versions of the classic of Agatha Christie's "Murder on the Orient Express" and I believe the new release is the best so far.

I don't think all of these quotes are originally present in the book. Some are added in the movie by the script writers. (My favourites from the movie). Last four are original for sure.

 “Wine is where the devil finds his darlings.”

“To a man with only a hammer every problem is a nail.”

 “Crime is an anomaly. Murder is a fracture of the soul.”

 “The scales of justice cannot always be equally weighed.”

“Because it’s how connected we are as human beings, how one horrific event affects many lives.”

"poison of deep grief.”

“I am not one to rely upon the expert procedure. It is the psychology I seek, not the fingerprint or the cigarette ash.”

“The happiness of one man and one woman is the greatest thing in all the world.”

“If you confront anyone who has lied with the truth, he will usually admit it - often out of sheer surprise. It is only necessary to guess right to produce your effect.”

“But I know human nature, my friend, and I tell you that, suddenly confronted with the possibility of being tried for murder, the most innocent person will lose his head and do the most absurd things.”


Trailer here 

On ultra-short stories

"Agar bachpan ka woh waqt phir se laut aaye jab hum jungle main jaya kerte the to kiya karoge?"

"Main bapu ki kaati hui lakRian phir jungle main bhool aaun ga"!

On Disease and Spirituality!

Mind blowing Russian author Fyodor Dostoevsky (1821-1881) was an epileptic. Its interesting how sometime minds are blessed:

"For several instants I experience a happiness that is impossible in an ordinary state, and of which other people have no conception. I feel full harmony in myself and in the whole world, and the feeling is so strong and sweet that for a few seconds of such bliss one could give up ten years of life, perhaps all of life. I felt that heaven descended to earth and swallowed me. I really attained god and was imbued with him. All of you healthy people don't even suspect what happiness is , that happiness that we epileptics experience for a second before an attack."

I am not going into any religious arguments here but it is said that Prophet Mohammad used to have similar attack before or at time of revelation from Allah!

Schizophrenia

I have seen few casses of schizophrenia during my practice and very much convinced that more than a psychological disorder, its a physiological disease. Its just unfortunate that few people get it. No they are not crazy people. Its just like diabetes, coronary artey disease or breast cancer which strike many people without their own fault.

"Doctor Sahib, chote chote bonoN (dwarf) jesi koi makhlooq hai. HazaroN ki taadat main mere aas paas jama rehte hain. Bus dar lagta hai mere ooper na char doraiN. Soti hun to bister ke neeche jama ho jaate hain. Kubhi yun mehsoos hota hai, bahir khirki ke jama hain. Aik shor sa har waqt machaye rakhte hain. Har waqt ayatul kursi parhti rehti hun magar koi faraq nahi parta. Kisi aur ko nazar nahi aate na sunai dete hain. Dr. Sahib, log kehte hain mujhe schizophrenia hai. Hoga magar khuda ki qasam - kuch to hai jo sach hai. Sab kuch jhoot nahi. Ye sirf mere dimag ka khalal nahi...."

Siri Ram urf Rahimtolla

A tale from friend

Koi kehta: "Oye! Siri Ram chai le aa". Koi kehta: "Oye! Siri Ram ja zara bhag ke pao bhaji le aa". Aur koi kehta: "Siri Ram, zara ye chithi post office dal aa."

Siri Ram yun to Bombay main hamare ghar ke saamne factory main mulazim tha magar saari building ke logon ke kaam 'free' main ker deta. Sham hoti to hamare ghar ki gallery main beth ker khirki se 'doordarshan' ke program dekha kerta, aur raat gallery se pare charpai daal ker so rehta. Main Bombay main Kandivali main rehti thi.

Aik din main subah subah uthi to Siri Ram topi pahen ke namaz parh raha tha. Main ne dil main kaha: "Ya Allah! ye kiya majra hai".

Main ne awaz di: "Are O Siri Ram - tu janam jaat ka hindu - ye namaz kiun parh raha hai?"

Siri Ram ne jawab diya: "Hamar naam ab Siri Ram nahi bulke Rahimtolla (rehmatullah) hai. Raat Nabi Mohammad hamar khwab main aaye the aur ye naam de gaye".

Main samjhi, yunhi is ka dimag chal gaya hai. thori der main theek ho jaaye ga magar woh sach ka muslman ho gaya tha. Allah jane kahan se us ne fatar fatar Quran ki aayatain bolna shuru ker di !

Mujhe america ka student visa bari mehnat ke baad mila. Meri september 12, 2001 ki ticket confirm thi aur aik dum se 9/11 ho gaya. Mere abbu ne ticket cancel kerwa di aur phir aik mahine baad ka naya ticket liya. Main bohat dari hui thi. Musalman hone ke naate yahi khayal tha ke america main enter nahi hone dain ge. Siri Ram urf Rahimtolla ne aik din mujh ss kaha: "Are! likh diya gaya hai. Tu zaroor jaaye gi bulke wahan biah bhi rachaye gi magar mushkil ye hai ke wapas India aane ke liye tere mian ki ijazat maangti phire gi"! Us ne mujh se kaha: "Jub tu wahan officer ke saamne jaane lug to ye do duain parh lio" Mujhe Siri Ram ki baton ka koi yaqeen to nahi tha magar immigration officer ke saamne jane se pehle main ne dono duain parh li aur aram se USA main enter ho gai....

Baqol Siri Ram - mera biah bhi rach gaya. Ab mere abbu bister-marg pe pare hain magar mera mian mujhe India jaane ki ijazat nahi deta. Main ne Amma se kaha: "Siri Ram se kaho Dua kare". Siri Ram kehta hai: "Ye to likha tha magar hum phir bhi Dua karain ge. Betiya se kaho har cheez apne waqt se hoti hai".

You always argue about religion with me. How you will explain Siri Ram to me?

Caves

Last week while I was in Texas, we friends embark on exploring caves and caverns. It was an amazing experience walking in huge basketball field size caves 200 feet beneath earth. As we went from one cave to another, I was thinking more and more of Prophet Muhammad and Cave Hira.

As I came back, I tried to find info on this topic from net but to my surprise most history of Muhammad's 15-20 years trips to cave hira is not available. I found few facts very interesting rather intriguing.

1. Cave Hira is on Jable-Nur. Its not easy to climb. What triggered Muhammad to take this risky adventure? I didn't find any reference of having any tradition in Arabs to go in cave and meditate (most went to Kaaba in Mecca).

2. How he survived in cave for days without food (or so little food), in darkness, little space and against snakes/bats/animals.

3. What made me sad - I found that Cave Hira and area around is now littered with garbage and graffiti. We kill people and burn buildings if someone disrespects Muhammad but see how much we respect heritage of our own religion and prophet?

Anybody out there with any reliable reference on Muhammad's life in Hira?

Nightmare

Is baar bhi jub meri aankh, us khawab se khuli to mera poora badan paseene se sharabor tha.

Ye khawab main ne jub se hosh sambhala mujhe aksar aata hai, jis main aik khunkhuwar, gali ka mela kutta (stray wild dog) - jis ke badan pe kaale kaale daag hain meri taraf dekh ke bhonkta rehta hai. Jub bhi ye khawab aata hai, uske kuch hi dinoN main koi na-khushgawar hadsa zaroor ronuma hota hai.

Ab ki baar ye khawab thora mukhtaleef tha. Is baar us khunkhuwar kutte ne bhonkte huwe mere chehre ki taraf chalang lagaii - phir hosh nahi raha ke kiya huwa!

Aankh khuli to tez bukhar se badan garam tha, poora bister tar tha, dharkanaiN tez thi aur aik anjaane khauf ne poore kamre ko apni girafat main lapet rakkha tha!

The Professor

As commented for previous post - cross post from Uncle Saugoree blog

"He was not a university type professor but he was master of Ulum-e-Nujoom wa Qiyafah. He knew my chief and many other chiefs he knew as he had "tiched" them and had a testimonial from all big shots of Pakistan some professors, some High court Judges or Lawyers and such well-known officials and politicians (Pakistan and India- I am talking about 1958 experience).

One day he proceeded to demonstrate his "powers". He gave us a slate on which we wrote something after we had gone into other room and came back to him and to our surprise he was able to write it down exactly what we had written. So what is this "tiching". He would catch hold of a finger, mostly little finger just for a moment and then will tell you about what will happen to the person. This process was called by him as, "tich kerna". I was tiched also (no charge) and most of what he said turned out to be true such as when I would go out (of country) hwereas at that time I had not thought of leaving Pakistan".

Read full post here

Kala Jaadu - Syed Ali aur Zubi - 2

Syed Ali aur Zubi ka jo qissa pehle likh gaya hun (here), usi ke parton main ye aik ajeeb saniha hai.

Jesa ke main ne likha tha ke Syed Ali aur Zubi ki shadi ke liye shart ye lag gai ke pehle Syed Ali ki bahen ki shadi ho, jo ke ho ker hi nahi deti thi. Zubi ke andar jalti aag aahista aahista jalan aur phir adawat main tabdeel ho gai. Gurbat, Mohabbat aur dhalti umer ne mil ker 'frustration' itni barha di ke Zubi ne taaweez, gandon, babon, sadqon bulke kaale jadoo tuk ka sahara lena shuru ker diya.

Aik din Zubi ki ma use Karachi ke ilaqe 'teen hatti' pe kisi aamil ke paas le gai jis ne shaadi kerwane ki 'gaaranti' le li. Kuch ajeeb ajeeb amal bataye aur kaha; ye amal parh ke har raat Syed Ali ki bahen ki tasweer pe phoonkh do, tumhara kaam ho jaaye ga. Zubi ko ab in 'totkon' pe koi khas yaqeen to nahi raha tha magar ye soch ker ke kiya jata hai, amal ker diya.

Koi do teen mahine baad ye khabar aai ke Syed Ali ki bahen "Yarqan" (Hepatitis A) ki waba main faut ho gai. Maut bhi aesi ki jism ke har hisse se khun band hi nahi hota tha (coagulopathy due to liver failure).

Jub Zubi ne pehli baar mujhe ye qissa sunaya to rote rote uski hichki bandh gai. Mujh se kehne lagi, maiN ne kubhi aesa nahi chaha tha. Poochne lagi qayamat ke roz mera kiya hoga? Ab is zindagi main is nadani se ho jaane wale gunah ka kaffara kese ada karun? MaiN khud gunahgar.........siwaye tifal tassaliyon ke kiya jawab deta?

Allah hum sab ko is 'shar' (evil) se bachaye!

MaiN jub Amma se milne Canada jata hun aur raat ke peechle pahar, Amma ye samjh ker ke maiN so raha hun, mujh per 'surah falaq' parh ker phoonkti hain aur sir pe haat pehrti hain to pehle mujhe khub hasi aati thi magar ab nahi aati - bulke achha lagta hai !

(Below is a forward from regular mails I get)

Psychiatry, Religion and NDE

"As you ask me to pinpoint one thing which I found consistent and different in my practice of psychiatry, let me tell you first that being a psychiatrist and a Muslim together was very interesting for me, particularly after my training in Western institutions. One phenomenon which remained very attractive for me was talking to patients with 'near death experience' (NDE). All those patients consistently described their loved ones who were already dead to be on the other side waiting for them. I found it bizarre that none of many patients recalled seeing an alive person. I always wondered, is it all anoxic brain tissues that give consistent NDE physiology, or is this real metaphysical and spiritual thingy".

Related post: Code Blue

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Bhootnath

Agar aap ye blog parhte hain to aap ko andaza hoga ke main filmain (movies) bohut dekhta hun. Last I saw was Amitabh's "Bhootnath" !

Zindagi ke kai aese waqiat hote hain jo aap blog pe nahi likhte magar woh puri sachhai se aap ke ander rehte hain.

Meri zindagi main bhi aese (mushkil) lamhat aaye hain jin se mujhe ye yaqeen hai ke, jo log aap se mohabbat kerte hain woh mar ke bhi (after death) aap se qareeb rehte hain. Jub aap pareshan hote hain to unki ruh (soul) bhi pareshan ho jaati hai aur shayed aap ki hifazat ki sa'aie (endeavor) bhi kerti hai.

Any comment?

Bhoot !!

- Eid pe khususi tehreer


Amma batati hain ke bachpan main, main neend se uth ker chalne lagta aur poochta jata ke "Woh white white cheez kiya hai?" (meri schooling english medium hui shayed isi liye white white kehta tha).

Aik to shuru se kuch mera rujhan paranormal cheezon ki taraf tha aur phir doston, kitabon, filmon aur tajarbat ka kuch aesa asar para ke aik zamane main mujhe paranormal, parapsychological, new age wagera type ka literature parhne ka addiction ho gaya. 1994 se 2001 tuk ka zamana woh tha jub main ne is mozun per sekron kitabain khanghal daalin. Horror films dekhne ka shoq isi silsile ki kari hai. OOB (out of body) ki mashq kerne ki behuda adat, ruhain bulane ki tarqeebain wagera bhi isi zamane ka shakhsana hai. Sunsan galion, qabarstaon aur 'haunted house' khangalne ka janoon (to be a ghost buster) usi dor ki yaadgarain hai. Ooper se internet ne jalti pe tel ka kaam kiya. Aaj bhi agar aap mujhe waqt dain to main ghanton beth ke is mozun pe parh sakta hun aur youtube ki videos dekh sakta hun.

Ye tamheed baandhne ke baad agar aap mujh se poochain ke: "what's the point?", to ye ke:

Bhoot, bad-ruhain, churailain, peechal-paherian, jinn aur is tarah ki kai mawraye-nazar makhlukat (ya aap jitne naam sun chuke hain), is kaainat ka hissa hain magar yaqeen kijye unhe aap ko nazar aane aur tang kerna ka koi shoq nahi. Jo kuch aap ne parha hai ya suna hai woh 90% bulke 95% jhoot, darog goi, factuation, aadha sach, ya phir khud bayan kerne wale ka nafsiyati problem hai. (Just to note: in this regard, concept of schizophrenia remained my favourite and you should watch the movie - 'A Beautiful Mind').

Ye sab cheezain hamare saath rehti hain magar unki apni duniya aur apne masail hain. Insaan un se bari makhlooq hai. Siwaye shaitan ke kisi ke paas itna power nahi ke insaan ko haunt kare. Aur agar kubhi aesa ho bhi to un ko bhagnae ke liye quran ki 2 ayatain (ya jo mazhabi kitab aap folllow kerte hon) bulke kisi sufi ka kalam, koi bhajan, koi ginan - bulke mirza ghalib ke ashar bhi kafi hain !!

Insaan ko agar darna hai to un buraion se dare jo shaitan us pe daalta hai.

Awwal to choti burian jo "addiction" ki surat main insaan ko pakar leti hain - Smoking, paan, chai, hukka, charas, sharab, pornography - ye woh bhoot hain, woh churailain hain jin se chutkara ziyada zaroori hai. Ye insaan ko ghulam bana leti hain, nuqsan paunchati hain aur zillat ka dum deti hain !

Dastane-ameer-hamza main kisi gumnam jazeere pe aik badruh umru ki gardan pe charch gai aur umru jese ayyar ko bhi peecha churana mushkil ho gaya.

Aur us se bhi azeem bari burian hain - gussa, hasad, jalan, garoor, taqat, hirs, lalach wagera - jinhe dusre mazahib main Kam (Lust), Krodh (Rage), Lobh (Greed), Moh (Attachment) aur Ahankar (ego) kaha gaya hai - ye woh balain hain jinka "exorcism" sab se ziyada zaroori hai.

Agar aap kubhi mazaron pe gaye hain to wahan halwa bata jata hai. Halwa ya mithai jin paanch cheezon se banti hai woh hai doodh (kheer), cheeni (khand) , ghee (grath), ata (bhojan) aur saaf paani (amrat) - ye ishara hai ke aadmi darguzar, pyar, haleemi, qanat aur sachhai ki zindagi guzare.

Khush rahiye, abad rahiye, mithai ka mafhoom yaad rakiye aur khub Eid manaiye !

Eid Mubarak.

Andekhi aankhaiN

Jub tum akele main kisi se jhoot bol rahe hote ho to kiya tumhe ilm hai ke kai andekhi aankhain tumhe dekh rahi hoti hain - aur ho sakta hai wahi andekhi nighain kisi din tumhare khilaf gawah ban jaayaiN.

Ajeeb si baat

Us ne ye bari ajeeb si baat kahi mujh se. Sochta hun to mere saath bhi kuch aesa hi huwa tha aur kai dusre logon ke saath bhi hote dekha hai magar mera khayal tha ke ye to bus ittifaq hota hai. Us ne kaha....

"Aksar bachhon ke is duniya main paida hone se pehle us ke baap ya ma ya khandan ke kisi qareebi fard ko aik naghani afat, accident, bimari ya kisi khatrnaak raahguzar se guzarna perta hai. Aksar aap ne dekha hoga ke bachhe ki wiladat se kuch hafton pehle is tarah ka koi waaqiah hota hai ya aksar khandan ka koi fard intiqal ker jata hai. Aesa kiun hota hai, ye to maalum nahi. Shayed ye jatane ke liye ke ab se tumhari zindagi is bacche ke naam hai!"

Kiya pagalpane ki baat hai. Aesa kese ho sakta hai !

Andheri Gali

Us ne apna kal raat ka waaqia mujhe kuch yun sunaya

Ghar jaldi paunchne ke chakkar main, maiN ne bari sarak tak ke liye aik short cut liya. Short cut kiya tha ghup andehra tha. Nazar aana to door ki baat, aesa andhera tha ke haat ko haat na sujhaii de. MaiN ne apni bicycle ki raftar tez ker di. Aesa lagta tha ke ye gali aur is gali ke makeen jaane pechane hain magar mujhe un se bohut khauf aa raha tha. Meri bicycle ki raftar tez thi, mujhe kisi ne chua bhi nahi (ya shayed kisi ne chua tha). Jab maiN bari sarak pe pauncha to mera wallet gaib tha.......ye kesi andheri galian hoti hain jin main apne jese hi log rehte hain, jo apni apni si lag ke bhi khaufzada kerti hain aur insaan ko pata bhi nahi chalta ke kab uski saari mataa' (fortune) us andheri gali main loot gai.

pareende

Shayed insaan bhi kabhi hawaon main urta raha hoga aur phir shayed zameen ki chahat ne us ke par kaat diye, kiun ke shehar pe jab bhi koi aafat aane wali hoti hai to saare pareende mil ker chechahana shuru kar dete hain aur koi musibat aane se pehle insaan ka dil bhi kehne lagta hai ke 'kuch hone wala hai'

Special places

(Don't you feel different walking into the corridors of hospital!)

Jahan kahin mandir, masjid, girja, dargah ho - wahan zaroor jana chahiye aur un jaghon ki izzat kerni chahiye kiun ke wahan allah bhagwan rehte na rehte hon, logon ki duain, aarzuain aur tamannain zaroor rehti hain.